I might just be in obligation mode here. I feel compelled to keep posting, just to keep up. What is this worth? What do I hope to accomplish? Beats the hell out of me...and I'm just to fucking cynical to really care.
I like to make this worthwhile. I feel like I am helping myself sometimes...I go back and read older things....looks like a rollercoaster. Feels like it too. The problem is that I'm not really sure I can capture my real reactions, my real emotions.....it reads so pathetic sometimes, but then again I also think I'm too hard on myself.
I really don't have any inclination to post anything poker related either. Who wants to read hand histories? especially mine?
Well I do....and I guess that's all that matters.
I've been stewing on the whole ranking idea. I've always thought it was Pauly, Iggy.......and everyone else. As far as 'non famous' poker bloggers are concerned, who am I missing? Really.
I don't suppose that makes a whole lot of sense. Where is poker blogging's main stream? People outside our little clique may have some interest in Wil, PaulP, (which is how I really found this little world) and Pauly. But for the most part I feel like it's some pseudo circle jerk.
Now don't take this the wrong way..I've got those links to the right for a reason. I read all of those blogs...weekly, if not daily. Most everyone on that list has something valuable to add. Another perspective at least.
I never thought (and still do not think) that my posting here would lead to anything. I never even entertained the idea of making money from this. What it has done is buy me a ticket of sorts.
No I take that back....My writing hasn't gotten me anything, my participation in blogger events (namely WWDN weekly) is the only reason that I'm not the only person reading this blog. Some serious coat-tailing.
Who else is guilty of this?? I can't be the only one. And really, when another blogger told me that he had read my blog, I was at first embarrassed. What reason does anyone have to read or care about what I say? The only thing I see that anyone could gain is pity....
I'm being a little tongue and cheek, yes, but as far as the 'blogosphere' is concerned, I am a speck of dirt in a steaming pile of dung laid by a golden goose. How's that for descriptive?
I sincerely appreciate Poker Source of deeming me worthwhile....placating my ego, at least for a month. I'd seriously be surprised if they keep sponsoring me. Maybe they meant to send that e-mail to someone else? Anywho....they caused me to spruce this place up a bit, and that I thank them for. At least I have some pride.
Scew Iggy, I can ramble with the best of em. And I'm not even drunk....I'm putting off work....
I'll read this later and hopefully I can make some sense out of it.... Don't forget, If you are reading this, I value your time and for the first time ask for comments. If you don't feel like posting a comment for whatever reason, feel free to e-mail me 23skidoo@(nospam)gmail.com
Thanks for stopping by.....really.