Wednesday, February 22, 2006

sleep

I vow to sleep tonight.


Went out in stuupid fashion last night in the WWDN tourney last night. Not much memorable, but I was getting impatient. I hate it when I know that I'm making the wrong move but make it anyway, its like some kind of convulsion or something. My brain just cant handle the fact that I think I made a good move, but someone MIGHT have better cards than me. Last hand: Blinds are at 50 I think, ~2000 chips I'm dealt JTo in the SB. Folds around to me and I make a 3x raise. BB raises and I think, 'oh he just thinks I'm trying to steal.'(again)So I call. KJx on the flop. I figure BB has Ax or similar, so I bet out 400. BB raises, and I immediately raise all in....ugh. no thought, no reaction, nothing. Just throw em in. Of course he calls with AK. I spike a T on the turn, but my salvation is ended shortly with a river K. Bad Beat? no it was a stuupid play that i almost sucked out on. o well. Maybe I've been playing too much lately, cause I am not making optimal plays for the past 4-5 sessions.

sleep

I vow to sleep tonight.


Went out in stuupid fashion last night in the WWDN tourney last night. Not much memorable, but I was getting impatient. I hate it when I know that I'm making the wrong move but make it anyway, its like some kind of convulsion or something. My brain just cant handle the fact that I think I made a good move, but someone MIGHT have better cards than me. Last hand: Blinds are at 50 I think, ~2000 chips I'm dealt JTo in the SB. Folds around to me and I make a 3x raise. BB raises and I think, 'oh he just thinks I'm trying to steal.'(again)So I call. KJx on the flop. I figure BB has Ax or similar, so I bet out 400. BB raises, and I immediately raise all in....ugh. no thought, no reaction, nothing. Just throw em in. Of course he calls with AK. I spike a T on the turn, but my salvation is ended shortly with a river K. Bad Beat? no it was a stuupid play that i almost sucked out on. o well. Maybe I've been playing too much lately, cause I am not making optimal plays for the past 4-5 sessions.

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

nothing

I have nothing to say. Hopefully I can post about my miraculous victory in WWDN weekly.
I have been leaking chips lately...playing loose and seeing too many flops, it does not suit my style as it is. I will concentrate on being rocky tonight.

nothing

I have nothing to say. Hopefully I can post about my miraculous victory in WWDN weekly.
I have been leaking chips lately...playing loose and seeing too many flops, it does not suit my style as it is. I will concentrate on being rocky tonight.

Friday, February 17, 2006

Priorities

So I get home start cleaning up and getting dinner ready. If I don't cook, I don't eat. I'm not so full of myself that I think my wife should have a hot meal on the table for me every night. Besides, I prefer my cooking. I digress.

Rach comes home with the kids and tells me she is no longer going out with the girls. For a while there I was actually mad that she wasn't going out. I was in a crappy mood and just got busy doing other things. It dawned on me how selfish I was being. I mean, she was excited about spending time with me and my first thought was about how much poker I was going to miss.

I find myself in this juxtaposition now. I really want to improve myself as a poker player. It is something I enjoy tremendously. If I had no responsibility, I would play 24/7 or until I ran out of money. But seriously. I think I have the ability to be very good. I go through periods where I am unconscious...I'm so focused and I can't adjust when things go awry. In that same vein I get so manic and excited then things are going well that I sabotage my good effort with brash unconscious moves.

what's the purpose of this post? More whining and regurgitation... Can I make something constructive out of this? I get so involved in myself I don't reach out, I don't talk. I hide in this quiet construct that I've built for myself. Is that who I am? Is that what I want to be? Everything is so binary for me sometimes....YES or NO.

Priorities

So I get home start cleaning up and getting dinner ready. If I don't cook, I don't eat. I'm not so full of myself that I think my wife should have a hot meal on the table for me every night. Besides, I prefer my cooking. I digress.

Rach comes home with the kids and tells me she is no longer going out with the girls. For a while there I was actually mad that she wasn't going out. I was in a crappy mood and just got busy doing other things. It dawned on me how selfish I was being. I mean, she was excited about spending time with me and my first thought was about how much poker I was going to miss.

I find myself in this juxtaposition now. I really want to improve myself as a poker player. It is something I enjoy tremendously. If I had no responsibility, I would play 24/7 or until I ran out of money. But seriously. I think I have the ability to be very good. I go through periods where I am unconscious...I'm so focused and I can't adjust when things go awry. In that same vein I get so manic and excited then things are going well that I sabotage my good effort with brash unconscious moves.

what's the purpose of this post? More whining and regurgitation... Can I make something constructive out of this? I get so involved in myself I don't reach out, I don't talk. I hide in this quiet construct that I've built for myself. Is that who I am? Is that what I want to be? Everything is so binary for me sometimes....YES or NO.

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Tread Water

Listening to DeLaSoul and this song inspired me.

I seem to be treading water the last month or so. I suppose I should expect this playing primarily SNG's. Moving up to $15's has been much better than expected. Even though I 'know' I'm playing over my head bankroll wise. I can money in these tourneys about 30% of the time. Of course I have no data to back this number up, It seems about right and I've been sitting at +/- $200 in my PS account for the last 2 months. Ive been as far down as 30 and as far up as 350. Is this expected variance? I play tougher when down and looser when up...go figure.

Last night i played a 5 hour sesson starting at 170ish and ending 170ish. I played 4 $15 SNG's 2 6-Handed $12's and a $20. Plus I played .50/1 limit pretty much the whole time. I should have stopped at the 3 hour mark up ... but this is my problem. I still lack discipline and keep chasing just one more pot. How do you gague when is a good time to stop? Work certinly doesn't enter my mind. Sure I can work on 3-4 hours of sleep, no problem.

I've been trying to frequent other's blogs more often...stepping up my reading. I need to get Harrington's volume 2 back from my brother. I'm getting lots of 2nds and 3rds. Not a whole lot of 1sts. Gotta get back to work. I'll be hitting the tables around 8:30 or so, the wife's going out.

Tread Water

Listening to DeLaSoul and this song inspired me.

I seem to be treading water the last month or so. I suppose I should expect this playing primarily SNG's. Moving up to $15's has been much better than expected. Even though I 'know' I'm playing over my head bankroll wise. I can money in these tourneys about 30% of the time. Of course I have no data to back this number up, It seems about right and I've been sitting at +/- $200 in my PS account for the last 2 months. Ive been as far down as 30 and as far up as 350. Is this expected variance? I play tougher when down and looser when up...go figure.

Last night i played a 5 hour sesson starting at 170ish and ending 170ish. I played 4 $15 SNG's 2 6-Handed $12's and a $20. Plus I played .50/1 limit pretty much the whole time. I should have stopped at the 3 hour mark up ... but this is my problem. I still lack discipline and keep chasing just one more pot. How do you gague when is a good time to stop? Work certinly doesn't enter my mind. Sure I can work on 3-4 hours of sleep, no problem.

I've been trying to frequent other's blogs more often...stepping up my reading. I need to get Harrington's volume 2 back from my brother. I'm getting lots of 2nds and 3rds. Not a whole lot of 1sts. Gotta get back to work. I'll be hitting the tables around 8:30 or so, the wife's going out.

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

wwdn#14

Live blog!

I'll try to do this....delete it if I suck.

2 minutes to go 45 entered so far.

First table: Wannastache, BadBLood44, HeyKidsItsBG(eek) wwonka Whaaa? Fishy McDonk

Im dealt 66 bet 3x bb to stache and he folds.

Whaaaa? shows the hammer 8:31

8:34 I'm on a roll. ~2200 chips... until i get AQ...a66 hits and I bet into blood's AK. At least I only lose around 500 chips.

8:37 Jaxia and Obie34 join Wil's already out. I'm at the "TV" table.

8:45: AQ sooted with clubs against stache. Hit ace on the flop and Q on the river. Theres a flush draw out there and it scares stache off. I'm back up to my buy in.

8:47 BG has AA Obie34 is all in with KK. A spikes on the flop and Obie is out.

8:52 Jaxia betting big on to a ragged straight board with Whaa? calling her down. 400 chip bet by Jax at the end and Whaaa? doubles it. Jax folds.

8:58 call the blind and hit a flush on the turn. Stash again is betting . At the end he puts me all -in. I fold the flush and he shows quads. whew..I'm glad I slowplayed, but I'm shortstacked now.

Next hand I double up with K10 when the straight hits against Jax.

9:02 FishyMcDonk goes all in w/A9 to wwonka's AQ and is out in 48th.

9:03 I get 33 and get beat by stashes better FH. 5's vs 3's still alive though

9:07 33 again I bet and BG puts me all in with the hammer. I nearly die when 2 comes on the flop, but nothing follows. ~1200 chips now.

9:11 Jax gets some chips back when she gets a bb special 92 and turns it into a boat.

9:13 relative newcomer Astin doubles up against stash when his 6 holds up against A10

9:14 Jax is all in with big slick against BG's tens she doesnt hit and is out in 44th.

9:17 Steal a blind with A2 sooted.

9:20 Play 9Q and get 2 pair.

9:21 Stache goes all in against 2 raises (BG and wwonka) they fold.

9:23 Maude and smalldog join. I'm in between stache and BG still feeling like a runt.
I'm slowly moving back up.

9:29 Stache and wwonka in a big pot. stash folds to the all-in.

9:30 Break. 27 out of 32 bummer

9:37 Dealt 88 and XKM1245 puts me in...AJ off. 9 t 5 comes off to give him a straight draw. 8 comes and 5 on the river for the boat. sweet! 13th now.

9:41 xkm is all in with AK and gets beat by wwonka's TT. He is out in 30th.

9:42 weak_player (chipleader) and JMS42 join. I raise with QJ vs AJ. I get lucky when theres a flush on the board.

9:46 Maudie and bg are out. Maudie A8 vs bg 44 and JMS 77. No one is helped against the 77.

....
Wife came home and I had to talk...She is less than pleased that I'm playing poker on V-day.

10:04 started talking to weak_player and lost track. I got saved with trip 9's on the river. 15th out of 18. I'd really like to make the final table.


10:07 A10 all in vs ...77 929 on the flop... 3.. K done in 18th.

I needed to attend to the wife so I couldn't watch the final 2 tables.

Ok....I've gotten close 2 weeks in a row. I felt pretty good about my play up until the A10. I didnt need to push with only 1 player in the pot. Even though I don't cash I'll post this. I'm looking forward to next week.

wwdn#14

Live blog!

I'll try to do this....delete it if I suck.

2 minutes to go 45 entered so far.

First table: Wannastache, BadBLood44, HeyKidsItsBG(eek) wwonka Whaaa? Fishy McDonk

Im dealt 66 bet 3x bb to stache and he folds.

Whaaaa? shows the hammer 8:31

8:34 I'm on a roll. ~2200 chips... until i get AQ...a66 hits and I bet into blood's AK. At least I only lose around 500 chips.

8:37 Jaxia and Obie34 join Wil's already out. I'm at the "TV" table.

8:45: AQ sooted with clubs against stache. Hit ace on the flop and Q on the river. Theres a flush draw out there and it scares stache off. I'm back up to my buy in.

8:47 BG has AA Obie34 is all in with KK. A spikes on the flop and Obie is out.

8:52 Jaxia betting big on to a ragged straight board with Whaa? calling her down. 400 chip bet by Jax at the end and Whaaa? doubles it. Jax folds.

8:58 call the blind and hit a flush on the turn. Stash again is betting . At the end he puts me all -in. I fold the flush and he shows quads. whew..I'm glad I slowplayed, but I'm shortstacked now.

Next hand I double up with K10 when the straight hits against Jax.

9:02 FishyMcDonk goes all in w/A9 to wwonka's AQ and is out in 48th.

9:03 I get 33 and get beat by stashes better FH. 5's vs 3's still alive though

9:07 33 again I bet and BG puts me all in with the hammer. I nearly die when 2 comes on the flop, but nothing follows. ~1200 chips now.

9:11 Jax gets some chips back when she gets a bb special 92 and turns it into a boat.

9:13 relative newcomer Astin doubles up against stash when his 6 holds up against A10

9:14 Jax is all in with big slick against BG's tens she doesnt hit and is out in 44th.

9:17 Steal a blind with A2 sooted.

9:20 Play 9Q and get 2 pair.

9:21 Stache goes all in against 2 raises (BG and wwonka) they fold.

9:23 Maude and smalldog join. I'm in between stache and BG still feeling like a runt.
I'm slowly moving back up.

9:29 Stache and wwonka in a big pot. stash folds to the all-in.

9:30 Break. 27 out of 32 bummer

9:37 Dealt 88 and XKM1245 puts me in...AJ off. 9 t 5 comes off to give him a straight draw. 8 comes and 5 on the river for the boat. sweet! 13th now.

9:41 xkm is all in with AK and gets beat by wwonka's TT. He is out in 30th.

9:42 weak_player (chipleader) and JMS42 join. I raise with QJ vs AJ. I get lucky when theres a flush on the board.

9:46 Maudie and bg are out. Maudie A8 vs bg 44 and JMS 77. No one is helped against the 77.

....
Wife came home and I had to talk...She is less than pleased that I'm playing poker on V-day.

10:04 started talking to weak_player and lost track. I got saved with trip 9's on the river. 15th out of 18. I'd really like to make the final table.


10:07 A10 all in vs ...77 929 on the flop... 3.. K done in 18th.

I needed to attend to the wife so I couldn't watch the final 2 tables.

Ok....I've gotten close 2 weeks in a row. I felt pretty good about my play up until the A10. I didnt need to push with only 1 player in the pot. Even though I don't cash I'll post this. I'm looking forward to next week.

Monday, February 13, 2006

live games

Live card games have been killing me! I've got to stop playing the stuupid dealer's choice luckfests. I have no luck whatsoever and I should know this by now. [/vent]

I may take tonight off, kids have to write their valentines day cards. I need to get a card and headphones for Rach. I got her a lightly used iPod photo on e-bay. I got a case and have loaded her profile onto the mac already. I now have iPod envy of her pretty color screen and album art, however my music library is far superior than hers.

Anywho. If I have time I'll play some .50/1 limit and possibly a $15 SNG.

live games

Live card games have been killing me! I've got to stop playing the stuupid dealer's choice luckfests. I have no luck whatsoever and I should know this by now. [/vent]

I may take tonight off, kids have to write their valentines day cards. I need to get a card and headphones for Rach. I got her a lightly used iPod photo on e-bay. I got a case and have loaded her profile onto the mac already. I now have iPod envy of her pretty color screen and album art, however my music library is far superior than hers.

Anywho. If I have time I'll play some .50/1 limit and possibly a $15 SNG.

Thursday, February 09, 2006

Wil Wheaton Weekly

I played in Wil Wheaton's weekly tourney on Tuesday on a whim. I'll have to say it was a good bit of fun. I introduced myself as the unknown donk and was able to prove it pretty early on by calling an all-in with red queens vs AA. I drew a flush and had the whole table needling me about karmic retribution. Eventually i was able to even out the scales. However i had some great cards and was able to cripple CJ and take out a few more. I was moved and was ~10k in chips(15th place i think) I hit the table and landed with 33. I quadrupled the blind hoping to get everyone out and almost accomplished my goal. The chipleader called (treckgal?). The board showed Qhi rainbow and I ignored her 1K bet to make it 3K. She called and instead of backing down, I pushed again and got a re-raise. donk. muck and I'm out 1/3 of my stack. About 2-3 orbits later I'm done for the night in 20th place and I feel like a real retard. OWELL If there had been one more entry to the tourney (100) I would have been able to fold into the money. as it is I'm just another nameless donk who got lucky for an hour or so.

I will play next week though, that was fun.

BTW I'm getting killed this week on my regular tables. $6 and $15 SNG's and .50/1 NL. Even limit sucked...

I'm taking tonight off I think.

Wil Wheaton Weekly

I played in Wil Wheaton's weekly tourney on Tuesday on a whim. I'll have to say it was a good bit of fun. I introduced myself as the unknown donk and was able to prove it pretty early on by calling an all-in with red queens vs AA. I drew a flush and had the whole table needling me about karmic retribution. Eventually i was able to even out the scales. However i had some great cards and was able to cripple CJ and take out a few more. I was moved and was ~10k in chips(15th place i think) I hit the table and landed with 33. I quadrupled the blind hoping to get everyone out and almost accomplished my goal. The chipleader called (treckgal?). The board showed Qhi rainbow and I ignored her 1K bet to make it 3K. She called and instead of backing down, I pushed again and got a re-raise. donk. muck and I'm out 1/3 of my stack. About 2-3 orbits later I'm done for the night in 20th place and I feel like a real retard. OWELL If there had been one more entry to the tourney (100) I would have been able to fold into the money. as it is I'm just another nameless donk who got lucky for an hour or so.

I will play next week though, that was fun.

BTW I'm getting killed this week on my regular tables. $6 and $15 SNG's and .50/1 NL. Even limit sucked...

I'm taking tonight off I think.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

stream

Poker's going well...I can definately see it.
I've crossed the donk line. I am not losing money anymore.










watering down the icescape
needle in the hay
brought don stirring water
get in the game

in the still of instant behavior
the news crawls like butterflies

afternoon
going to get another one

the move seems clear
the mood seems dear
the ocean is there
constant

stream

Poker's going well...I can definately see it.
I've crossed the donk line. I am not losing money anymore.










watering down the icescape
needle in the hay
brought don stirring water
get in the game

in the still of instant behavior
the news crawls like butterflies

afternoon
going to get another one

the move seems clear
the mood seems dear
the ocean is there
constant