omghi2u

Typical boring day......tuesday, going to a staff dinner tonight. I'd rather go home to sleep. owell



in the drama of being
insecure born into thinking
finding a line to draw, only blown away by the sand
going into it is feeling whole

forget the new feelings
doing the good thing
checking with my conscience to see if its ok

look people, its pretty simple
point the guns ahead and pull
the lines aren't difficult to recite
here, I can give them to you myself

no need to think
just act
remain silent and nodding
off into the blue wings
folding into the waves of force

you are safe
you are safe
you are safe

omghi2u

Typical boring day......tuesday, going to a staff dinner tonight. I'd rather go home to sleep. owell



in the drama of being
insecure born into thinking
finding a line to draw, only blown away by the sand
going into it is feeling whole

forget the new feelings
doing the good thing
checking with my conscience to see if its ok

look people, its pretty simple
point the guns ahead and pull
the lines aren't difficult to recite
here, I can give them to you myself

no need to think
just act
remain silent and nodding
off into the blue wings
folding into the waves of force

you are safe
you are safe
you are safe

yawn

I read an interesting thing form some Astrology- Numerology Website that I am life path 1. Meaning:

http://www.astrology-numerology.com/num-lifepath.html#1

The Life Path 1 drive in this life is characterized by individualist desires, independence, and the need for personal attainment. The purpose to be fulfilled on this Life Path is that of becoming independent. This is a two part learning process; first, you must learn to stand on your own two feet and learn not to depend on others. After you are indeed free and independent, you must learn to be a leader. Many of our Generals, corporate leaders, and political leaders are men and women having the Life Path number 1. The 1 always has the potential for greatness as a leader, but they may fail as a follower. Many 1's spend most of their lives shaking off their dependent side. When this happens, there is little time left for enjoying the rewards to be gained through independence. The individual with Life Path 1 has to overcome an environment in which it is very easy to be dependent, and difficult to be independent.

A person with positive 1 traits abounds in creative inspiration, and possesses the enthusiasm and drive to accomplish a great deal. Your drive and potential for action comes directly from the enormous depth of strength you have. This is both the physical and inner varieties of strength. With this strength comes utter determination and the capability to lead. As a natural leader you have a flair for taking charge of any situation. Highly original, you may have talents as an inventor or innovator of some sort. In any work that you choose, your independent attitude can show through. You have very strong personal needs and desires, and you feel it is always necessary to follow your own convictions. You are ambitious, and either understand or must learn the need for aggressive action to promote yourself. Although you may hide the fact for social reasons, you are highly self-centered and demand to have your way in most circumstances.

When the 1 Life Path person is not fully developed and expressing the negative side of this number, the demeanor may appear very dependent rather than independent. If you are expressing this negative trait of the number 1, you are likely to be very dissatisfied with your circumstances, and long for self-sufficiency. This is defined as the weak or dependent side of the negative 1 Life Path. On the strong side of this negative curve, the 1 energy can become too self-serving, selfish and egotistical. Over-confidence and impatience mark this individual.

I do like to think of myself as independent, but something doesn't compute... wheres the drive?
Yes I feel independant minded and strong willed, but how do I put it to use? Certainly not by sitting in front of a computer for the next 10 years. Whats the plan???? I've got to stop making excuses for marginal and bad behaviour. I need to take care of MYSELF, to the benefit of my loved ones..not to my own satisfaction. So it appears as thoug I am on the weak side of this trait....how do I balence it.....Whay do I need people telling me what to do?? Why can't I come up with something on my own?? BAH. cop out. Think about it.






In a shell of indifference the energy is quelled
going not to the destination, but to the dream
liquid and angry the senses flare
when do you learn to trust them
to trust them more than your mind can grasp

to leap into the air.....grasping at something
letting sheer will lift you up

yawn

I read an interesting thing form some Astrology- Numerology Website that I am life path 1. Meaning:

http://www.astrology-numerology.com/num-lifepath.html#1

The Life Path 1 drive in this life is characterized by individualist desires, independence, and the need for personal attainment. The purpose to be fulfilled on this Life Path is that of becoming independent. This is a two part learning process; first, you must learn to stand on your own two feet and learn not to depend on others. After you are indeed free and independent, you must learn to be a leader. Many of our Generals, corporate leaders, and political leaders are men and women having the Life Path number 1. The 1 always has the potential for greatness as a leader, but they may fail as a follower. Many 1's spend most of their lives shaking off their dependent side. When this happens, there is little time left for enjoying the rewards to be gained through independence. The individual with Life Path 1 has to overcome an environment in which it is very easy to be dependent, and difficult to be independent.

A person with positive 1 traits abounds in creative inspiration, and possesses the enthusiasm and drive to accomplish a great deal. Your drive and potential for action comes directly from the enormous depth of strength you have. This is both the physical and inner varieties of strength. With this strength comes utter determination and the capability to lead. As a natural leader you have a flair for taking charge of any situation. Highly original, you may have talents as an inventor or innovator of some sort. In any work that you choose, your independent attitude can show through. You have very strong personal needs and desires, and you feel it is always necessary to follow your own convictions. You are ambitious, and either understand or must learn the need for aggressive action to promote yourself. Although you may hide the fact for social reasons, you are highly self-centered and demand to have your way in most circumstances.

When the 1 Life Path person is not fully developed and expressing the negative side of this number, the demeanor may appear very dependent rather than independent. If you are expressing this negative trait of the number 1, you are likely to be very dissatisfied with your circumstances, and long for self-sufficiency. This is defined as the weak or dependent side of the negative 1 Life Path. On the strong side of this negative curve, the 1 energy can become too self-serving, selfish and egotistical. Over-confidence and impatience mark this individual.

I do like to think of myself as independent, but something doesn't compute... wheres the drive?
Yes I feel independant minded and strong willed, but how do I put it to use? Certainly not by sitting in front of a computer for the next 10 years. Whats the plan???? I've got to stop making excuses for marginal and bad behaviour. I need to take care of MYSELF, to the benefit of my loved ones..not to my own satisfaction. So it appears as thoug I am on the weak side of this trait....how do I balence it.....Whay do I need people telling me what to do?? Why can't I come up with something on my own?? BAH. cop out. Think about it.






In a shell of indifference the energy is quelled
going not to the destination, but to the dream
liquid and angry the senses flare
when do you learn to trust them
to trust them more than your mind can grasp

to leap into the air.....grasping at something
letting sheer will lift you up

a light went out

I just going to post some random stuff, until I can find some sort of direction.
Maybe I can get inspired by something.



Study materials are the wors things ever written. I can not be compelled or compel myself to read this garbage. I am only encouraged to fall asleep. Open a CCNA training material book and tell me it aint true. I want to know this stuff, but reading is the last way for me to learn something. I just need to skip to the tasks I guess, and go backwards.....thats how I've always learned things. Break it and put it back together.


I have a desire to be something..I just wish someone would tell me what it is.

I still havent gotten anything for may Wife's birthday.....


Does there come a tim when your mind just decides to wake up....or do you need to get an alarm clock?

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Nope.....Got nothing....

a light went out

I just going to post some random stuff, until I can find some sort of direction.
Maybe I can get inspired by something.



Study materials are the wors things ever written. I can not be compelled or compel myself to read this garbage. I am only encouraged to fall asleep. Open a CCNA training material book and tell me it aint true. I want to know this stuff, but reading is the last way for me to learn something. I just need to skip to the tasks I guess, and go backwards.....thats how I've always learned things. Break it and put it back together.


I have a desire to be something..I just wish someone would tell me what it is.

I still havent gotten anything for may Wife's birthday.....


Does there come a tim when your mind just decides to wake up....or do you need to get an alarm clock?

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Nope.....Got nothing....

stuff

Guess I haven't kept this up very well....Not that it matters.


How can life be so full and feel so empty?
What makes me feel like this?
Where's the meaning?
Why can't I feel?
Why am I such a whiner?

stuff

Guess I haven't kept this up very well....Not that it matters.


How can life be so full and feel so empty?
What makes me feel like this?
Where's the meaning?
Why can't I feel?
Why am I such a whiner?