Monday, April 25, 2005

mondaze

Hey there. I really want to try and keep this up. Though its weird trying...I've never been much of a journal person. Whats weird is that when I was in high school I wrote every day, multiple times a day even. Did that part of my brain die? or did I just get busy with other stuff. There's this 16 yr old kid still inside of me. Desperate, craving approval, yearning for validation. I'm not desperate or unhappy, my wrist sure does hurt though. I hope it clears up soon, I hate doctors.

I spend far too much time in front of a monitor.

I wonder if any long term studies have been conducted regarding constant bombarding of light from a CRT tube. I've spent the better part of the last 6 years in front of a screen, I suppose I am exposed already. Am I serious....who knows, what is serious?
HM....I sound like some kind of ...oh whats that comedian's name.. Richard something...neurotic dude. oh well.

hone the shills
are the nights that young?
looking up, jumping neat like spirals
around the news and reviews
the sites are undeterminable
is it there?

under neath the clothes intrapped
by embarrasement looming inside
yearning want
too much time
ignored

under the moon
dancing in spirals.



Cleaned up a bunch last weekend, the wife wasn't speaking to me... but we cleared things up. And the house is spotless. Sha said she's just going to quit talking to me every now and then so that shit gets done around the house. Funny right. she's a card.


Speaking of cards, I'm currently on a decent run at PS...keeping my head above water. I'm organizing a Tourney for OT. Hopefully we'll get enough players forat least 2 tables. I had forgotten how much I liked PS. The play seems to be more steady there. More guys like me who know the rules and follow them somewhat. I'm enjoying the 2 table SNG's. Those take a good bit of time and patience, which I feel is my strong suit. Enough for now. Later.

mondaze

Hey there. I really want to try and keep this up. Though its weird trying...I've never been much of a journal person. Whats weird is that when I was in high school I wrote every day, multiple times a day even. Did that part of my brain die? or did I just get busy with other stuff. There's this 16 yr old kid still inside of me. Desperate, craving approval, yearning for validation. I'm not desperate or unhappy, my wrist sure does hurt though. I hope it clears up soon, I hate doctors.

I spend far too much time in front of a monitor.

I wonder if any long term studies have been conducted regarding constant bombarding of light from a CRT tube. I've spent the better part of the last 6 years in front of a screen, I suppose I am exposed already. Am I serious....who knows, what is serious?
HM....I sound like some kind of ...oh whats that comedian's name.. Richard something...neurotic dude. oh well.

hone the shills
are the nights that young?
looking up, jumping neat like spirals
around the news and reviews
the sites are undeterminable
is it there?

under neath the clothes intrapped
by embarrasement looming inside
yearning want
too much time
ignored

under the moon
dancing in spirals.



Cleaned up a bunch last weekend, the wife wasn't speaking to me... but we cleared things up. And the house is spotless. Sha said she's just going to quit talking to me every now and then so that shit gets done around the house. Funny right. she's a card.


Speaking of cards, I'm currently on a decent run at PS...keeping my head above water. I'm organizing a Tourney for OT. Hopefully we'll get enough players forat least 2 tables. I had forgotten how much I liked PS. The play seems to be more steady there. More guys like me who know the rules and follow them somewhat. I'm enjoying the 2 table SNG's. Those take a good bit of time and patience, which I feel is my strong suit. Enough for now. Later.

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

Not Much time

Wanted to report on the weekend. I came in 4th...just out of the money, after one rebuy. I didnt play badly....just never accumulated chips. My best had was KK vs AQ all in with about 7 ppl left. It felt good for the kings to hold up. We played some cash games afterward and I was able to get my entry and rebuy back, so It was a decent night.

Not Much time

Wanted to report on the weekend. I came in 4th...just out of the money, after one rebuy. I didnt play badly....just never accumulated chips. My best had was KK vs AQ all in with about 7 ppl left. It felt good for the kings to hold up. We played some cash games afterward and I was able to get my entry and rebuy back, so It was a decent night.

Friday, April 15, 2005

Move along....

Nothing to see here.



I had a nice nite with the inlaws. Dicussed our vacation plans in May. My brother in law and I will use one night to go to a local poker room for their daily tourneys, yay!

Tonights the monthly game, tomorrow is CASINO night. I'm calm and collected. The monthy game is usually loose with about 3-5 good players involved. I plan to wait it out until we're at least halfway through. I tried that last time with good results, but got a little over zealous when we got down to 8 or so. I just need to remember patience, and not to drink too much. I also have tennis Saturday morning, so I can't be out too late. (famous last words) I'm going to a cigar smoker this afternoon before poker, it shoud be fun and relaxing.

I fear I'm putting too much pressure on myself to succeed tonight. I don't want to play too tight, but I definately can't bluff some of these guys out. Some of them know this and I've used it in the past to mixed results. If I spend the first hour or 2 playing very tight. Hopefully someone will notice and I can use that to my advantage. PATIENCE. Don't get frustrated and give in. I need to stay focused. This is my #1 issue.

Move along....

Nothing to see here.



I had a nice nite with the inlaws. Dicussed our vacation plans in May. My brother in law and I will use one night to go to a local poker room for their daily tourneys, yay!

Tonights the monthly game, tomorrow is CASINO night. I'm calm and collected. The monthy game is usually loose with about 3-5 good players involved. I plan to wait it out until we're at least halfway through. I tried that last time with good results, but got a little over zealous when we got down to 8 or so. I just need to remember patience, and not to drink too much. I also have tennis Saturday morning, so I can't be out too late. (famous last words) I'm going to a cigar smoker this afternoon before poker, it shoud be fun and relaxing.

I fear I'm putting too much pressure on myself to succeed tonight. I don't want to play too tight, but I definately can't bluff some of these guys out. Some of them know this and I've used it in the past to mixed results. If I spend the first hour or 2 playing very tight. Hopefully someone will notice and I can use that to my advantage. PATIENCE. Don't get frustrated and give in. I need to stay focused. This is my #1 issue.

Thursday, April 14, 2005

No Control

Maybe my wife is right. I couln't stop thinking about playing. I gave in last night and 'just'
played a $5 SnG. What a waste of time. I know better than playing these anymore. Half of the players will bet and go all in on any hand just hoping to get lucky. The problem is that ~80% these are the guys that suck out hands. I play very tight at these games just waiting on the hands to punish the fish. With 6 people left, I get 88 in position just before the blind. There's one caller in the pot and I raise to 3xBB. Small Blind folds BB calls and limper folds. The flop comes 265 rainbow. I make a sizable bet ( i know take more notes.) The turn brings another low diamond card, i don't think the BB is on a straight draw, why would he call the initial raise with a 34 or the like?? I have to admit at the time I'm only really concerned about a higher card coming out. I think BB has an Ax possibly a flush draw. I don't know why I'm thinking this, I just am. I put all my chips in at this point hoping to scare out the draw. BB calls and turns over A 10 diamonds, and there are 2 diamonds on the board. Are you kidding me?? This guy puts in over 1500 chips in on a draw with one card left. I am a huge favorite here....so I think. The river brings another diamond, and I am sent packing.......ridiculous. So many times recently this has been the case. I put my money in the pot with the best hand and get outdrawn.. I just have to stop playing the stupid $5 SnG's its a waste of time indeed.

I can't let this get to me.....a bad beat. I don't think I played it incorrectly, possibly a little slow, which I tend to do when I have a good hand. I need to start winning these hands earlier, and forget trying to maximize my value. Well, no poker until my live game tomorrow. I'm going to do some reading until then.

No Control

Maybe my wife is right. I couln't stop thinking about playing. I gave in last night and 'just'
played a $5 SnG. What a waste of time. I know better than playing these anymore. Half of the players will bet and go all in on any hand just hoping to get lucky. The problem is that ~80% these are the guys that suck out hands. I play very tight at these games just waiting on the hands to punish the fish. With 6 people left, I get 88 in position just before the blind. There's one caller in the pot and I raise to 3xBB. Small Blind folds BB calls and limper folds. The flop comes 265 rainbow. I make a sizable bet ( i know take more notes.) The turn brings another low diamond card, i don't think the BB is on a straight draw, why would he call the initial raise with a 34 or the like?? I have to admit at the time I'm only really concerned about a higher card coming out. I think BB has an Ax possibly a flush draw. I don't know why I'm thinking this, I just am. I put all my chips in at this point hoping to scare out the draw. BB calls and turns over A 10 diamonds, and there are 2 diamonds on the board. Are you kidding me?? This guy puts in over 1500 chips in on a draw with one card left. I am a huge favorite here....so I think. The river brings another diamond, and I am sent packing.......ridiculous. So many times recently this has been the case. I put my money in the pot with the best hand and get outdrawn.. I just have to stop playing the stupid $5 SnG's its a waste of time indeed.

I can't let this get to me.....a bad beat. I don't think I played it incorrectly, possibly a little slow, which I tend to do when I have a good hand. I need to start winning these hands earlier, and forget trying to maximize my value. Well, no poker until my live game tomorrow. I'm going to do some reading until then.

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Shortcuts

I'll start adding some more.


I plan on winning my $50 tourney on Friday. I am resolute, focused.

Time Out

Ok Great timing on the whole poker blog thing. I am going to hang it up online for awhile. At least a month. I just don't have the patience to grind away and my wife is getting pissed off since I play about 2-3 hours a night. She came down on me pretty hard last night says she is sick of seeing me 'sitting in front of that box.' I am obsessed, and possibly taking a step back is what I need. I think its a good thing, I am definately down for the year, and I can not see real improvement in my game.

Last night was rough, playing a $10 SNG get KK in 3rd position with 5 players left. I make a moderate 2x BB raise. Folds around to the chip leader in the blind, he calls. cards come off 7K9. I make another moderate bet which represents about half my stack, but I have to get this guy off a draw. He smooth calls an I have him on the draw, pokets, or possibly paired kings. jack comes next and I go all in. Hoping he hasnt already made the straight. He calls with J8, and I'll give you one guess as to what comes on the river.
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10 makes his straight and I feel like putting my fist through something. Possibly I could have commited to the pot on the flop to pull him off the draw, but I don't know. Just horrendous. Wife is already in bed, so I have to just sit there and take it. I commense to blow through another frustrating round of .50/1 and quit just before 1...

I really suck, I just need to accept it and move on . It's a discipline issue, and I just have none whatsoever, I'm so compulsive its not even funny.. Back to work. I do have some live games coming up this week, so I need to clear my mind. I need a gameplan, and I need to follow it......anybody got one?? jk....sort of.

Shortcuts

I'll start adding some more.


I plan on winning my $50 tourney on Friday. I am resolute, focused.

Time Out

Ok Great timing on the whole poker blog thing. I am going to hang it up online for awhile. At least a month. I just don't have the patience to grind away and my wife is getting pissed off since I play about 2-3 hours a night. She came down on me pretty hard last night says she is sick of seeing me 'sitting in front of that box.' I am obsessed, and possibly taking a step back is what I need. I think its a good thing, I am definately down for the year, and I can not see real improvement in my game.

Last night was rough, playing a $10 SNG get KK in 3rd position with 5 players left. I make a moderate 2x BB raise. Folds around to the chip leader in the blind, he calls. cards come off 7K9. I make another moderate bet which represents about half my stack, but I have to get this guy off a draw. He smooth calls an I have him on the draw, pokets, or possibly paired kings. jack comes next and I go all in. Hoping he hasnt already made the straight. He calls with J8, and I'll give you one guess as to what comes on the river.
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10 makes his straight and I feel like putting my fist through something. Possibly I could have commited to the pot on the flop to pull him off the draw, but I don't know. Just horrendous. Wife is already in bed, so I have to just sit there and take it. I commense to blow through another frustrating round of .50/1 and quit just before 1...

I really suck, I just need to accept it and move on . It's a discipline issue, and I just have none whatsoever, I'm so compulsive its not even funny.. Back to work. I do have some live games coming up this week, so I need to clear my mind. I need a gameplan, and I need to follow it......anybody got one?? jk....sort of.

Monday, April 11, 2005

Monday

OK Why not participate in a little indulgence of the ego.

Here's the first entry of my weblog, who know if I will keep this up or not.


If anyone happens to read this, I apologize in advance for poor grammar, spelling or content.

I have crusty eyes....

I am going to see the doctor in a few minutes, since i think I may have pink eye. The kids are germ machines I'm telling you. It is now 8:38, I need to be there in about 2 hours. The question is, should I come back?
Let's see, if I have to be there at 10:45, then it takes an hour to be seen I am then done after lunch. Then I need to actually eat lunch....whick makes it 1:30-2 when I am available. Tough call.
Anywho, its a gross way to start off a blog, so I'll move on.

It was a very nice weekend. I went to the baseball game on Friday, got completely hammered, then woke up Saturday morning, in my car no less, and had to go play tennis. We had a very good game 6-0, 6-1. No contest. Maybe I should play hung over more often. Then again, maybe not. I spent the rest of the day trying to feel normal again.
Needless to say I didn't accomplish much on Saturday. Played with the kids. Let Rach go up to the tennis courts to make up some brownie points.
Sunday I hit the ground running; did some yardwork, cleaned out the garage, played with the kids, and was still able to catch a good part of the Braves VS the Mets. Smoltz pitched a great game with 15K's but ran out of gas at the end. Pedro was in control all day and pitched a complete game. Then I watched Tiger hold off Chris DiMarco in sudden death at Augusta. A great day indeed, it was beautiful out.

I was able to fit in some poker on Saturday, I played for a bit on Carribbian Sun, trying to get 500 hands before I run out of money. Doesn't look possible at this point. I dropped ~40 playing 1/2. I should have checked those tables out before depositing. I am more comfortable at .50/1 right now, I I beleieve that effected my play. I played a $5 multi table very well. But went braindead with 25 players left. I went all in on 99 against an agressive player who had QQ. DOH! What an asshole I am finishing 23rd when payouts were going to 20.... I simply wasn't thinking of my position. Then I went to Pokerroom to make up. Placed 2nd in an Omaha $10 SnG and then made a few more bucks at .50/1.. Consistency.Consistency.Consistency.Consistency.

I am so impatient sometimes and I feel myself doing it. Very frustrating, but I believe I am able to analyze my play a bit better these days. I am certainly alot less deluded than I used to be. I play solid poker about 80% of the time, and just need to hone in a little more. I am still on the losing side I believe despide some big nights. I really need to start taking more notes. Possibly this little blog can help me realize where I am truly at, and if I need to stop.

Well, I suppose that is good enough for post1 of ?. I will try to keep this up, maybe add a picture or spruce this page up. Then again.....

Monday

OK Why not participate in a little indulgence of the ego.

Here's the first entry of my weblog, who know if I will keep this up or not.


If anyone happens to read this, I apologize in advance for poor grammar, spelling or content.

I have crusty eyes....

I am going to see the doctor in a few minutes, since i think I may have pink eye. The kids are germ machines I'm telling you. It is now 8:38, I need to be there in about 2 hours. The question is, should I come back?
Let's see, if I have to be there at 10:45, then it takes an hour to be seen I am then done after lunch. Then I need to actually eat lunch....whick makes it 1:30-2 when I am available. Tough call.
Anywho, its a gross way to start off a blog, so I'll move on.

It was a very nice weekend. I went to the baseball game on Friday, got completely hammered, then woke up Saturday morning, in my car no less, and had to go play tennis. We had a very good game 6-0, 6-1. No contest. Maybe I should play hung over more often. Then again, maybe not. I spent the rest of the day trying to feel normal again.
Needless to say I didn't accomplish much on Saturday. Played with the kids. Let Rach go up to the tennis courts to make up some brownie points.
Sunday I hit the ground running; did some yardwork, cleaned out the garage, played with the kids, and was still able to catch a good part of the Braves VS the Mets. Smoltz pitched a great game with 15K's but ran out of gas at the end. Pedro was in control all day and pitched a complete game. Then I watched Tiger hold off Chris DiMarco in sudden death at Augusta. A great day indeed, it was beautiful out.

I was able to fit in some poker on Saturday, I played for a bit on Carribbian Sun, trying to get 500 hands before I run out of money. Doesn't look possible at this point. I dropped ~40 playing 1/2. I should have checked those tables out before depositing. I am more comfortable at .50/1 right now, I I beleieve that effected my play. I played a $5 multi table very well. But went braindead with 25 players left. I went all in on 99 against an agressive player who had QQ. DOH! What an asshole I am finishing 23rd when payouts were going to 20.... I simply wasn't thinking of my position. Then I went to Pokerroom to make up. Placed 2nd in an Omaha $10 SnG and then made a few more bucks at .50/1.. Consistency.Consistency.Consistency.Consistency.

I am so impatient sometimes and I feel myself doing it. Very frustrating, but I believe I am able to analyze my play a bit better these days. I am certainly alot less deluded than I used to be. I play solid poker about 80% of the time, and just need to hone in a little more. I am still on the losing side I believe despide some big nights. I really need to start taking more notes. Possibly this little blog can help me realize where I am truly at, and if I need to stop.

Well, I suppose that is good enough for post1 of ?. I will try to keep this up, maybe add a picture or spruce this page up. Then again.....